Wednesday, 14 May 2014

Ever Since I met You

Today is one of the most precious days of my life…. Yes! You read it right…I met you today.....
I still remember all that insecurity, all the hatred, I would say, I had for you. I was scared of losing my lovely life…. losing all the attention…losing the importance and losing all the love that mom has for me. Now I know, it was not me but the thoughts put by people in 3rd STD kid’s mind. They had scared me of your arrival in my life. They had portrayed you to be my competitor. And it was hard for me to understand that it was just another joke. Life was just a nightmare those days… and May 13th was the day when I was so lonely ….you had made “my” mom get admitted to the hospital. I could not see her around. I was scared of losing her for no reason…. I wanted to cry … I wanted to scream ... but no one would pay heed to me, I knew. Everybody was busy to be ready to welcome you… And I was busy thinking how I get rid of you….What do I do to get my mother back to me….
14th Noon…. Masi came to me saying “Apla chota baal alay, gora gora paan….tappore dole…. Yetes ka bhetayla? Chal na TAI….” TAI……Suddenly in a moment I was “The Elder” child, the responsible,the caring sis… I hardly could understand though… All I wanted to do was to meet my mom and hug her tight and get her back to me… 
Hospital room … mom was tired, much weaker than I saw her couple of days before…. But I was happy to see her… I was happy to see the same love in her eyes. She held me for a while and just pointed something….I reached on the other side of her bed in a li’l hesitation… 8 pound mass was looking at me with twinkling eyes…Magic happened I suppose....You changed me in a second…. Now you were mine…. I forgot all my negativity….
                Ever since I met you, Ever since I saw you… you have made me a better person every day. You were the reason why I wanted to be the best… the role model for my sweet angel… I wanted to be perfect so that you follow the correct path when you keep your steps on the same footprints… (Yeah! yeah… I know I am not perfect… but I really tried it every day till you copied all my styles)
You are the reason I learnt loving someone so immensely and so selflessly. You are the reason why I would share something even when I badly wanted the same thing. You are the only person against whom I would enjoy all my defeats. You are the person who made me realize fights are beautiful… You are the person who becomes my team when mom tries to drop in to resolve the fights… You are the reason for spending hours doing nothing and still making the time most memorable… you are the one with whom coffee tastes like elixir….you are the one whom I feel responsible about… You are the one who has seen and been together through all thick and thin… You are the reason for discovering my strengths in disastrous times …. You are the reason which increased my patience to a level…. You are the one whom I can share anything with. I am not alone at any point of time for I know I can share with you if not anybody else… You are the reason why I met some wonderful and everlasting relations…. You are the one who can teach fashion to a person as illiterate as me…. You are the one whom I look up to when it comes to emotional detachment…. You set an example of detaching oneself,

for an emotional fools like me …You are the one who becomes “psychologist” or “philosopher” as Tai needs timely…. You are one of the reasons; I don’t need any other critic outside home.
Yes… You are reason for my anger too… You are the reason for my concerns too… you are the reason for my worries too… But more than that you are the reason for my smile… and moreover the precious tears as well…. You are the only reason why mom becomes runner up and holds 2nd position in my life…..Nothing can scare me more than the thought of losing you …. Believe me… we all have gone through this thought and nothing … nothing on this earth is as scary…. You are my strongest weakness…but the strength as well…..I can't be thankful enough to almighty and my parents.... for YOU are the best present they have ever gifted :)

Ever since I met you… life is not just a walk to remember but a blessed journey to cherish all the time…. Happy Birthday Darling…..